Since this realization, I have been at a bit of a block. How do I add something that is personal, interesting, entertaining and true to what I want to do? It's a bit scary to be honest, and as I'm thinking about it now, I don't know how I'll do if I ever do get published. But that's for me to discover later perhaps.
Part of this shock was a bit telling if you know me. I can honestly say, I don't have the greatest self esteem. I've worked very hard to get it to a good solid ok point that I'm at now and for the last year, I've been dealing with some frustration keeping it there. But I genuinely was surprised at how interested people were to read the blog. I found myself continuously asking myself why people read, why they visited, why they cared. I'm still not entirely sure why all of the readers of this blog do care, but I will continue to revel in your love and take advantage of it. Sorry for being a leech on you all, but you truly have no idea how much it helps.
So now that I'm done being all mushy gushy with you, I will let you all in on some little known facts about yours truly. These are all personal truths, some only revealed to a few people before. Take them for what they are.
- I attended modelling and acting school. I never acted on it, which I sometimes regret. Acting would have been cool, and I really think Jennifer Lawrence and Olivia Munn and I could have been great friends.
- I cried on my 25th birthday. I was terrified and felt like I hadn't accomplished much. I often compare myself too much.
- I was diagnosed with depression at a young age. I took pills, saw a therapist and all that jazz. I know the source of my depression, though few others do. And honestly I maybe should have been diagnosed much sooner.
- I hate going to see doctors. I hate being diagnosed. See above. I just think that the human experience is unique and unquantifiable. So when someone tries to tell me whats wrong with me, it just tends to piss me off.
- My Grandfather's passing had a very profound effect on me. More so than people think. Even those closest to me really have no concept of what it truly did to me. I'm not sure if it was because I was so young, or because we were so close or what.
- I prefer a good balance of science and emotion. I think humans in general are a bit naive and narrow minded when it comes to certain things.
- I believe in a lot of weird things. Like supernatural things, cryptozoo-ology, aliens etc.
- I am maybe one of the only people I know who never blamed themselves for their parents divorce. It may sound egotistical, but I knew the problems were between them and not me.
- My entire life, I've been accused of having different eating disorders like anorexia or bulimia. I've never had either. My only eating disorder is that I'm maybe not the healthiest eater and I eat too frequently. Like any chance I get.
- I'm afraid to have children because I'm afraid I won't be a good Mom.
- Sometimes I'm amazed people want to be my friend. I will literally receive texts, facebook messages and stuff and wonder if the message was intended for me. Must be a consequence of that pesky low self esteem.
- I loathe magazines because they give me a false idea of what I should be, but I love them because they tend to tap my creative side.
- If I could make money writing, reading, watching tv/zombie movies, and finishing my book, I would do it in a heartbeat.
- I do miss old communication methods and I loathe how attached I am to my phone.
- If I truly said what was on my mind most the time, I'd probably scare people.
- I know what I'm passionate about, but I am worried I can't make money doing it.
- I went to Australia for two weeks when I was in middle school. It was the coolest experience ever, and I would like to go back.
- Anything Paris related sends my heart aflutter.
- I went on a school trip to Washington DC when I was in middle school. While at the FBI building my mom and I breached security without meaning to. I feel like, had it really been an issue though, we would have been interrogated.
- There are times when I think I belonged in another era. Like maybe the 60's or 70's. Then I think maybe in the 20's.
- I think I am completely random at best. My self expression will never be consistent other than it is completely mine.
- My ultimate goal in life is to change someone's life.
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Until next time...
xoxoxoxo
Trista
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